Become a Student of Yourself

I love podcasts.  I download them to my Ipod and listen to them while I do housework or drive.  I subscribe to about 10, but my latest favorite is The Accidental Creative

 I’ve been listening to some of the older ones lately and heard an interview with Lisa Johnson the other day.  She’s a consultant who helps companies promote their products to “the connected generation.”

 Go here to listen to her.  She’s quite inspiring.

What really made my ears perk up was when she said she has become a “student of herself,” meaning, that she knows how she works best, what lights her up, and what nourishes her creativity.

 She knows, for example, that she’s a non-linear thinker who gets a charge out of de-coding chaotic ideas and making them clearer for her clients.  She knows this is where the “juice” is for her in her job, so as much as possible she gets other people to do the stuff she is NOT good at, so she can focus only what she does best.

 She also knows what nourishes her creatively.  For her, it is being active outside: running, hiking, biking, swimming—getting big endorphin rushes.  She is not nourished by big city stim, for example, but some other people might be.  What she needs is open air and space and physical movement to stoke her creative fires.

 This interview challenged me.  It made me think: Do I know how I work best? Do I know what lights me up? Do I know what nourishes me creatively?

 So I scribbled about this for awhile and this is what I came up with.  (Try asking yourself these questions. It’s a very interesting exercise.)

 One thing I know absolutely is that I can only think with a pen in my hand.  Or at least my best thinking, my clearest thinking, all of my breakthrough thinking, happens when I am writing with a pen.  My random, non-pen thinking is what I call the “spaghetti mess.” 

 Sometimes I can tease out a linear line of thinking from the mess if I talk to myself or to someone else, but my very best thinking comes out of the pen. (I can’t work on a computer keyboard, unfortunately. I think the electricity messes with my process.)

 A pen slows me down, forces me to focus and to deliberately sew one thought into another with some kind of order and flow that then allows me to go back, re-read and discover, usually for the first time, what I really know and think.

 (It’s the old, “How do I know what I think until I read what I write” thing.)

 That’s why I have to write. I really don’t have a choice. If I go too long without writing, the spaghetti mess amasses to the point where no thinking is possible, or rather no clear thinking is possible, and I wind up walking around like a robot in a fog.

 Then after I have spent hours, days, weeks, months clearing out the spaghetti mess, writing every day, teasing out the threads, sewing them together, what lights me up is the next part: sharing it with others.

 That’s why I love blogging.  That’s why I love publishing in Mt.Home.  That’s why I love conversing with others after yoga, or over drinks, or a meal.  It’s the sharing and the exchange of ideas (after they’ve been clarified) that is so damn FIZZY for me, and lights me up and makes me happy.

(to be continued…)

Happiness, the ingredients

I’ve been thinking about my recipe for personal happiness and what the basic ingredients of that happiness might be.  This is what I came up with– so far.  (I’ve taken as a “given” my health and having food, shelter and clothing.)

Things I Care About and Think Are Important

  • Having a neat, clean, orderly and aesthetically pleasing environment to live in.
  • Celebrating things: birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas, Groundhog Day—any excuse for a celebration
  • Having friends and being a friend
  • Reliability. Being “count-on-able.”  Doing what I say I am going to do.
  • Promptness.  Being on Time. Honoring my commitments.
  • Taking real action towards dreams and goals.  Talk alone doesn’t count.
  • Fun.  Having fun regularly, daily.
  • Balance.  Work + Play.
  • Seeing the glass half full.  Worldview is skewed towards Optimism and Fun.
  • Generosity.  Going out of my way to help.
  • Regularity in daily habits.  Eating. Sleeping. Working. Exercising.  Daily rituals enable me to thrive.
  • Being a responsible pet owner.  Understanding that animals rely solely on me for their care and happiness and that if I choose to have pets I need to put their needs before my own.

And to sum up:

  • Compatability.  (Definition: Capable of orderly, efficient integration and operation with other elements in a system with no modification or conversion required.) The people I live with, and choose to be in daily contact with need to operate smoothly together in terms of daily habits, rituals, and world view.  They need to care about, and think the same things are important as I do. If that happens, then I feel in harmonious collaboration with life, which in turn creates in me a feeling of deep, rich, fudgey happiness.

Yum.

Be Nice

There’s a new building going up on the Mansfield University Campus.  I’ve been watching it go up all summer: the ground-breaking, and then the backhoes, and now the framing.  Lots of guys in hard hats, pouring cement, setting rebar, working hard.

Building something of this magnitude takes a lot of planning and cooperative effort on the part of the crew.

Yesterday I was walking past the site, and one guy (The Boss) was looking through a transit, shouting to a guy (The Worker) on the other end of the building to put the board, “Over to the left!”

Here’s how it went:

The Boss (shouting at the top of his lungs): “Over to the left!  The left, you idiot.  Don’t you know your left??

Worker: That IS my left!

The Boss:  You’re an idiot!  No!  Over one more!  One more, I said!  No! ONE MORE!  You’re an idiot!  Jesus Christ! Over!  Over!  Right there!  NO!  Not THERE, you idiot!

I was walking the dog past all this shouting and insulting and I could take it no longer, so I started to yell:

Me:  Hey!  You up there!  That’s right, you. With the mouth!  Keep a civil tone, why don’t you!  You’re polluting my audio environment!  Play nice, boys!

At this point the idiot, (I mean the “Worker,”) began to howl laughing.

All my ideas of how workers need to cooperate in order to build a complex building went out the window.  What apparently happens on this work site is that there is an overbearing foreman with no people skills who neither respects nor  knows how to talk to his crew.

I fear for this building.

Not Your Mother’s Yoga

I was cruising down State St in Ithaca after my lunch with Zee and there was a sandwich board on the street announcing a new yoga studio: Mighty Yoga.

It obviously caught my eye and I picked up the flyer.  It’s a Power Yoga place and their tag line?  “Not your mother’s yoga.”

They are obviously marketing to the college students who want more from their yoga class than an easy stretch class followed by savasana.

Mighty Yoga.

Power Yoga.

Bring a water bottle and towel it said.  I know what’s going to happen there: Lot’s of suns and vinyasa with some advanced asanas thrown in to scare you, humble you, and make you respect it so you’ll come back next time just to see if you can do it.

But my question is this: why isn’t this for your mother?  Who’s mother are they referring to here?  Because I have plenty of mothers (and some grandmothers) in my classes who can do Power Yoga with advanced asanas, sun sequences, killer vinyasas and they don’t even blink.  Most of them never need a towel.

Not your mother’s yoga?  Must be pretty lame-o yoga, then.

They’ve obviously never seen a Power Mother.  Now I’m fantasizing about taking a bunch of my (ahem) “mothers” to crash that Mighty Yoga.party.  Let’s take these Mighty Yoga pups to school, muthahs!

“Not your mother’s yoga” indeed.  Pth.

Failure, the lifestyle

So one of the things I hate most is…failing.  (I know.  I know. I am totally unique in this.)

Check that.

I don’t so much mind the actual failing, what I hate (and fear) is the prospect of failing.  The movie in my mind of how failing is going to play out in all it’s Academy Award Best Picture drama is terrifying. And I’m sure this mind movie is the root cause of my procrastination problem.  Because, as we all know, if you don’t actually DO anything, you can’t possibly fail, right?  Bingo. Problem solved.

But if you don’t DO anything, you’ll never achieve anything either.

Bingo.  Problem back.

This War of Art book that I am now so endlessly obsessed with that I keep re-reading sections of it all day long, says that I need to get into the habit of failing, and when failure happens, just go back to work.  And when I succeed?  Just go back to work.

I’ve been girding my loins for this new failure lifestyle that I am now going to embark upon.  I just got home from yoga class and checked Facebook and Mozart posted this video tonight.

It’s perfect, so I’m stealing it and posting it here.  (Thanks, Mozart.)

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/video/video.php?v=198400150523&ref=nf

Being a Pro

Before I read Steven Pressfield’s The War of Art I was proud of my amateur status as a writer.  Being an amateur, I could be a lover of the art and not a hack.  I was free.  I could do what I wanted, and not what others wanted, or expected me to do.  Being an amateur felt cleaner, freer.

Here’s how Pressfield defines the Professional (in any field):

Pros show up every day.

Pros show up no matter what.

Pros stay on the job all day.

Pros are committed over the long haul.

For Pros, the stakes are high and real.

Pros accept remuneration for their labor.

Pros do not overidentify with their jobs.

Pros master the technique of their jobs.

Pros have a sense of humor about their jobs.

Pros receive praise or blame in the real world.

On the other hand,  here’s how he describes amateurs:

They don’t show up every day.

They don’t show up no matter what.

They don’t stay on the job all day

They are not committed over the long haul.

For them the stakes are illusory and fake.

They do not get money.

They overidentify with their art.

They do not have a sense of humor about failure.

They have not mastered the technique of their art.

They do not expose themselves to judgment in the real world.

When I read this section (taken practically verbatim from page 69-71) I thought:

I don’t want to be an amateur!  I want to show up no matter what and master the technique and be open to praise and blame and commit over the long haul. I want to battle the demon called Resistance.  I want to be a warrior, not a wussy amateur.

I want to be a Pro.

And I have committed to that today.