I take a shower, do my hair, decide what to wear, and drag myself up the stairs thinking, “How much longer can I do this? What’s the point? Nobody comes, or very few.” I hang up my coat, take off my shoes, and begin setting up the room: pick the music, and light the candles. I dim the overheads. I power on the spiral. It feels so warm, so sacred, so calm. It feels like church. It feels like a world apart.
Entering the Caution: Flammable Era
I am in no condition to write an inspiring blog post today. I am filled with hate and rage. But because I possess the super-power of metacognition and can be aware of my thought processes as I have them, I’ll muzzle myself now and wait until I can talk without spittle collecting in the corners … Continue reading Entering the Caution: Flammable Era
Fight, Flight, or Freeze: The Upcoming Election
When I am anxious or triggered, I use my words. That’s my way of fighting. I will do lots of cerebral screaming. I will talk to myself and the people who trigger me IN MY HEAD. Sometimes, I will write everything down. I will scribble vehemently like someone possessed.
The Yoga of Disappointment
The story I was telling myself about what happened wasn’t what happened. That was over. That was a phone call and it had ended hours ago. Now I was making up stories
Oil
I asked the therapist at the end: If you could give one piece of advice to anyone (including me), based on your expertise as an Ayurvedic massage therapist, what would it be?
At Kripalu
I am sitting in the sunroom on the fourth floor, where I had a breakthrough epiphany many years ago. It was here that I began transcribing letters from my Inner Wisdom Guide. This sunroom has always been one of my favorite places. It’s all redecorated now, tricked out with slouchy, lounge-friendly furniture in greens and … Continue reading At Kripalu
Inspired By In October 2024
Watching: Documentary on Netflix called America’s Sweethearts: The Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders. Weirdly compelling. The DCC fascinates me because it’s like a cult. Why are these women so willing to devote their whole lives to this organization, even though they get paid about what a worker at Chipotle gets paid? I kept waiting for one of … Continue reading Inspired By In October 2024
Ending The Year With Fun?
What exactly do I want more of in my life right now? What might I theme around from now until the end of the year?
Zillow
My daughter is looking at houses. On Zillow. The Pinterest of Real Estate. I read today that the Fed is poised to lower mortgage interest rates, and buyers are ready to pounce. My daughter is ready to pounce. She’s been looking on Zillow for about a month now, and she sends me links to the … Continue reading Zillow
Don’t Assume
This new development made me think a lot about how when you get old, people treat you differently. You even treat yourself differently, especially when it comes to self-improvement and self-renovation projects.