Today is April fool’s day. The first day of the Yoga Challenge. A rainy, cold, and crappy day.
I had to get up and get going. I had to be “on.” Lots of “on.” First-day- of-Yoga-Challenge “on.”
Class started slow, then amped up. With lots of breathing.
Breathing is hard. Harder than it should be, given that we do it all day long and should be experts at it by now.
But we’re not. It’s exhausting. It’s exhilarating.
After class I sat at my table in the window at Night and Day and played with my Feelings and Needs cards. From the Feelings Deck I picked: Calm, Comfortable, Hopeful, Relaxed, and Open.
From the Needs deck I picked: Authenticity, To Be Seen for Who I Am, Freedom, Balance and Power in My World. Those were the needs that were met, resulting in Calm, Comfortable, Hopeful, etc.
I have a pretty good life. I know it. I appreciate it. I designed it this way. I protect it.
It’s not like it just fell in my lap. It comes fairly easily now, and I get a lot of support to sustain it, but at the same time, I designed it this way. I made certain choices: Partner (huge), and friends, primarily. But also the choice to care, to give a shit, and to support the people around me who are doing good things in the world.
So I sat at my table and felt mellow. And grateful.
And then went home and took a nap.
Because of all the “on.”