This morning during my meditation, I was forced to confront the fact that my project has slowed down. (Who am I kidding? It has come to a halt. Not a screeching halt. Just a quiet, rubbery thud of a halt. Which is the worst kind: a thud can go unnoticed, but a screech gets your attention.
Ever since I took those 12 people through the exercises in the book to see if they really worked, I never got back to it.
I let the fire go out. Okay, not entirely. There is still a soft bed of glowing ash that could easily be coaxed back to a roaring blaze with a few pumps of a bellows, but I need to blow on that sucker! I need to get back to it and finish it, and SHIP IT
It is all sitting in Scrivener but it is a holy mess. I keep wondering if I should take the time and go back to the LearnScrivenerFast videos and figure out how to bring this beast of a manuscript into some kind of order? Or is that just a procrastination project?
Am I just using Scrivener to distract myself from the discomfort of having to deal with an unwieldy piece of writing?
Or, would time spent reacquainting myself with some of the features of Scrivener be time well invested because I would then have mastery over this amazing piece of writing software for the duration of my writing career? (i.e. the rest of my life.)
So I sat on my chair with my Insight Timer on my lap, and quote, unquote “meditated.”
I watched the panic surge up. I watched my confusion. I focused on the sound of the space heater’s fan, my own breathing, and the high-pitched tone of my tinnitis.
When the gong sounded, I slowly opened my eyes and the first thing I noticed was the pile of Pick 4 books on the bed.
I had gotten them out thinking I would send one to my new health coaching client, but as it turns out, I am not going to be working with her after all.
This Pick 4 book is a “goal setting” tool. I bought these for myself, but also to give to my clients at the recommendation of Seth Godin, who re-packaged this Zig Ziglar piece of magic, and wrote a new introductory “reframe” for it. I tried it myself way back when, and although I had high hopes, I never kept up with it.
Today though, it gave me a mega-jolt of inspiration.
So I sat down and recommitted to 4 new goals for the next 12 weeks:
Number 1: Finish and Ship this book.
Number 2: Become an expert in Scrivener.
Number 3: Get really, really, really strong.
Number 4: Express gratitude daily.
Every morning, Monday through Friday from 7 AM to 9 AM: Work on the book.
I will work on Scrivener on the weekends.
I will talk to Vince on Tuesday and we will set some SMART goals for the next 12 weeks of strength training.
And I have hatched a Thank-you note scheme for my loyal yoga students to fulfill the Gratitude goal.
I worked a long time in Scrivener today, and now it is time for bed because my 12 week plan starts tomorrow.
Wish me luck.