Who Do You Think You Are?

Ever since I got home from my latest yoga training I have been really amped up and sparkling with devotion. I have been getting into my yoga room every morning for intense pranayam, postures and meditation.

Yesterday during my meditation I had a panic attack.  My “To Do” list suddenly loomed up in my mind and I thought: Oh my god! I don’t have time to be sitting here doing NOTHING!  I have a shit ton of stuff that needs to get done.  My practice and meditation felt self-indulgent.

“Who do you think you are that you can spend an hour a day focusing solely on your inner world?” I thought.

When I was a kid, I would lay on my bed and read for hours.  My mother would “catch me” and flip out: “Who do you think you are, missy?  Who do you think you are that you can spend the whole day READING???  You think you are a princess? Get up off that (goddamn) bed and clean the bathroom, do the dishes, mow the lawn!  Work!

And this old conditioning is still apparently operating within me today.  Who do I think I am?  (Who do you think YOU are?)  I am a yoga teacher.  (Who are you?) Practicing keeps me in integrity.

Who do you think YOU are?

What keeps YOU in integrity?

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